Week 4 coughs up a lung

Week 4 ended on a bit of a downer. I’d been doing well, writing a bit each day but the streak came to an end. I drafted two short stories and three flash fiction. I started a fourth but it wasn’t ready to be told. Instead of forcing it, I skipped a day.

Somewhere along the way, I caught a nice little cold/flu, was diagnosed with some vitamin deficiencies (insert scurvy joke here, matey) and started a few new prescribed drugs. Needless to say, it’s taken a toll on my energy levels. Falling asleep at 9pm and sleeping for 11 hours is definitely not what I would call my normal. Hopefully the worst of this will pass in a few days.

My goals throughout February are slightly changed (I’ll update my goals list when I have more energy). So named by Andrea, February is now Type Edit Polish Submit (TEPS) month. Type up draft zero and whip it into shape, clean it up, and send it to market. This should be good practice for me. Writing first drafts is easy; I have twenty of them in that state. Editing is the hard work and the thing I need the most work at.

This glass ceiling also has a floor and four walls

From time to time I talk about things of an extremely personal nature. Talking is cathartic and healthier than the alternative. Herein I ramble about depression, anxiety, and other foibles.

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Week 3: Practice Stories

Another kind of successful week — 3,237 new words, bringing the years total to 10,404.

I’m still struggling with revisions. I got critiques back on two of my stories this week. The crits were brutally honest, the way I like them, and resonated with things I’d been trying to figure out myself. One thing I’m uncovering is that I don’t read critically enough. Having a third party point out an issue is great. I don’t always agree, but I usually see their point of view. It’s not easy but I’m trying to be honest with myself about the stories I’ve written.

The story I’ve been trying to edit? Broken. Not hopelessly so, but it’s going to require enough work to fix, and my voice has changed enough since I originally wrote it, that a rewrite is in order. Off to the salt mines it goes, until I decide it’s ready to play nice again. I’m accepting that there are practice stories. I don’t remember where I saw the term mentioned recently, but it stuck with me. These are the stories written that were useful to move from one phase to the next but are critically damaged as-is. You can either spend the time to rewrite and fix them, or stick them in the trunk and move on. The option to revisit is always there later.

Part of this process is re-evaluating my goals on a regular basis. If something doesn’t work, change it. I’m going to give myself a break from stressing over revisions this week, instead focusing on finishing the new story I’m working on and the essay that I want to write. February is going to focus more on revision. Fixing what’s broken, instead of putting a pretty coat of paint on a broken plot or weak characters.

Is this one of those things I’m going to read about on your blog tomorrow?

Well no, because I’m not ready to talk about that just yet.

Hershel posted his list of stuff he can’t live without the other day and it got me to thinking. I’ve learned a lot about myself and materialism over the past two years. I found that I don’t need a lot of stuff to be happy. Not that I’m a monk or anything but I’ve come to understand the “less is more” mentality. There’s few things outside of the obvious food/shelter that are must-haves, but I do have a list of things that I wouldn’t fathom being without.

Some might say it’s cliche, but my list starts with Andrea. Without her, I might still be in the dark place and that wasn’t good for anyone involved.

The tools of my trade

  • My Moleskin notebooks — they go where I go.
  • A fountain pen. Right now it’s the Azure Blue Regatta by Monteverde that my Mom gave me for Christmas. I have a different pen, my first real fountain pen, given to me by the awesome Kyle Cassidy, awaiting repairs.
  • I suppose I should claim my Macbook Pro as a necessity. I’ve almost forgotten what it’s like to work from a desktop.
  • Friends. As introverted and socially awkward as I tend to be, my friends bring me more joy than I can express.
  • Twitter/Facebook/Email/LiveJournal – how I communicate with most of my far-flung friends.
  • My iPod – Music is a very important part of my life that I don’t seem to talk about that often.
  • My iPhone – I deliberated leaving it off the list, because I’d rather use it to text or twitter than to talk.

Maybe what this says about me is that I’m an extrovert trapped inside the mind of an introvert. Pretty much everything that I consider important to keep near and dear revolves around communicating with the world.

Week 2: A step slightly staggered

A new short story and a flash fiction drafted, and a second short story underway. Over 7,500 new words this year, with my average rising to 509 words/day.  The Honorable Mention nod and a personal rejection also came in. The year is off to a good start.

I’m still struggling with revisions. I failed my weekly goals this week, getting almost no editing done nor my outline for the Dollhouse essay. The essay contest’s deadline has been extended by two weeks, so I’ve adjusted my goals to reflect that. What I think I need to do is set more specific revision goals. A page a day, maybe. I do well when I’m working against a deadline but I have way too many stories sitting neglected that don’t have a hard stop against them. I’m never going to get more submissions out the door if I don’t start revising on a regular basis.

Writers of the Future: Honorable Mention

I felt a little blue this week, grousing over revisions and my sometimes fragile ego. I distracted myself by patiently refreshing the Writers of the Future blog and checking the mail every few minutes, hoping to see some word of the 2009 Q4 results. Well, the list of Honorable Mentions was released before they had a chance to update the blog.

“Out of the thousands of stories that get submitted to the contest, a small percentage make it this far,” Wentworth continued. “Past Honorable Mention stories have gone on to see publication elsewhere. That is how competitive this contest is. The contest quality of submissions is the best of the best.”

I am pretty pleased to see my name on the list of Honorable Mentions. It certainly shook me out of my funk. I’m one for one so far, so We’ll see if I can keep up the streak with my Q1 submission. Now to see if I can find a good home for the Q4 story.

As an aside, is there any benefit to adding “received Honorable Mention, Writers of the Future Q4 2009″ to a stories cover letter? My guess is no, since a shiny rejection is still a rejection and not relevant to the new market.

The best laid intentions, felled by a lack of 3×5″ notecards

When I kicked off the year writing 250 new words a day, I had a plan. A story. An outline, man. I finished that story yesterday. Plus an impromptu flash fiction piece. Today? I have no plan.

I have a theme (thank you, upcoming anthology). I have the kernel of a plot and main character. Tonight, I write without  my safety net. I’m curious to see what this change in process produces. With luck, I’ll end the night with a coherent idea of where this is going.

The Lemonhead defense: a plea to Warren Lapine

It started with an announcement by Realms of Fantasy (RoF) magazine. A special themed issue. “Girl writers only.” A slight faux pas that was eventually correctly revised and apologized for. In the interim, some people were vocal about their discern that RoF would again make such a slip given the last gender-related fail. Catherine Valente, a well-respected writer, commented on the issue. She noted her take on the problem, and why she would rather see the issue of gender balance addressed in a smart way, not an appease-the-greasy-wheel way. She also comments that she probably won’t submit, due to previous commitments and the lack of email submissions.

Then Warren Lapine, the new publisher of Realms of Fantasy, invoked the lemonhead defense.

My head is a lemon  Your argument is invalid

Warren starts the discussion by saying how Google has shown him “an amazing amount of sour grapes” and compares the people raising complaint of sexism with those arguments for the acceptance of email submissions, two distinct and separate issues. One poster, Jay O’Connell, attacks the genre as a whole; he’s also the webmaster of Realms of Fantasy. Douglas Cohen, Editor, reaffirms his poor word choice in the original apology. As the discussion devolves, supporters of electronic submissions are classified as writers who don’t read and are “marginally committed to the notion of writing and submitting.” In the end, with a wave of his hand, dismisses all argument because none of the people “attacking us” have published a top four magazine.

Let me set some facts straight.

Warren Lapine, once publisher of the ill-fated DNA Publications, which ended its existence on less than stellar terms. Despite this sorted history, the community, that according to Jay O’Connell deserves to be slapped in the face, welcomed Warren back with open arms. When Sovereign Media announced that they were closing the iconic Realms of Fantasy, Warren stepped up and saved the magazine.

Realms of Fantasy, in their return, has had some missteps. See Fishboob Fail ‘09 via Fan History’s Realms of Fantasy wiki. When they launched their now-inactive Twitter account, run by advertising director Jeff Kight, among it’s first tweets were spam.

Catherine Valente, who’s LiveJournal post is clearly being referenced in the above discussion, posted some follow-up comments.

Warren: Yes, the purchase of a top four magazine allows you to claim that you publish a top four magazine, but using it as a magic want to invalidate the argument those who can’t doesn’t hold up under scrutiny.

There are two arguments being made: sexism and email submissions.

As far as sexism goes, I’m not a fan of segregation. Making an all-inclusive issue is bound to upset people, it has the implication that you need to provide separate attention to that demographic because they can’t compete on their own merits. I think Catherine’s suggestions for how to deal with the gender issue are worth repeating:

I guess I prefer Weird Tales’ approach, which is to do an issue dealing with gaze and gender, inviting writers specifically to contribute, and welcoming both genders as long as they engage with the subject matter.

As far as electronic submissions go, there are plenty of business and process reasons that could be sited for or against. Gordon Van Gelder, editor of Fantasy & Science Fiction, tackles this question all the time.

But seriously, there are several reasons and the biggest one is that there are *many* people submitting manuscripts and few of us here reading them. I remain unconvinced that we could install an electronic system that would let us handle our volume of submissions effectively.

At least once a year I speak with an editor who does take e-subs and ask them about their system, what they like about it, what they don’t. Most of them don’t accept submissions that are longer than 5,000 words. None of them say the volume of submissions they receive matches ours. None of them have convinced me that we could make e-subs work for us.

See what he did there? He addressed the question directly and firmly. He further cuts off the “but it works for so and so” rebuttals by staying informed on changes to the electronic process. He doesn’t attack the critics; he responds calmly, with reason.

Warren, criticism of Realms of Fantasy aren’t personal attacks against you and invoking the lemonhead defense against them is eroding the respect equity that the magazine has earned itself over the years. Look at it as an opportunity to interact with the community. Listen to what’s being said. If you choose to respond, do so thoughtfully, even if in disagreement. Stand firm in your beliefs but be open to hearing other points of view.

People aren’t asking for special favors, they’re asking for equal treatment, equal representation. Instead of a “Women-only” issue, focus on the “Women in Fantasy” theme and accept submissions from all. Solicit stories from a number of profile authors of all genders. Publish the stories that work.

I’ve heard the argument “We can only consider what’s submitted” a number of times. While valid on the surface, there are steps you can take to increase the diversity of your pool. Publish your submission guidelines on your website, even if you don’t accept electronic submissions. Join organizations like Broad Universe and the Outer Alliance and make your support for diversity known. Join with the community, contribute to the discussion at conventions like WisCon, where diversity and equality is the focus, instead of alienating it.

Small things, in the grand scheme of things, that can really make a difference.

Week 1: Knock on wood

When I started out following Booklife and documenting my writing progress, I suspected the first few weeks would either be really easy or really hard. Establishing a habit takes times and it’s easy to make excuses to skip writing. We all hear or use them — I’m too busy, too much day job work, kids/family, etc. Then there’s the Resolutionists, who make a bunch of goals at the beginning of the year and waver after a few weeks. Also guilty as charged.

I set three goals for the week:

  • Write at least 250 words every day
  • Decide on topic for Dollhouse essay
  • Reread The Descent of Iron Hammer and make editorial notes

I ended up averaging 507 words/day, hitting 3,555 words on the redraft of Recycled Dreams. If my pace continues it will be ready to rest in a deep, dark desk drawer by the end of the weekend. I picked the topic of my Dollhouse essay but it’s a closely guarded secret for now. Then there was The Descent of Iron Hammer, my mash-up of Dwarves, airships, and steampunk, but with lightning instead of steam. I had some nice editorial comments from it from the PARSEC contest lo those two years ago. I read through it again tonight. Wanting to set the manuscript on fire and dance naked in the snow as its ashes scattered is probably a good sign that I’ve made some improvement since I wrote it. Broken, but fixable.

In other writing news, I have my application stories (Clarion, Viable Paradise) out to a couple readers. Once those comments come back I’ll make another pass of edits and then out into the pool of hopeful writers they go. Two submissions out, both to Writers of the Future. Results for 2009 Q4 are trickling in so I should hear back soon (I will be trudging off to the post office tomorrow to check the mail). I have a third story that I really should send back out but I haven’t worked up the nerve to send it back out. It’s had good rejections, bad rejections, and a rewrite request. I’m torn on what to do next.

Say you have a story that you think is good, but doesn’t really reflect the quality of your writing today. In other words, your internal editor says, Hey, we can do much better if we rewrite this, only you’ve already rewritten it a couple times and you’d rather be working on newer things. Do you keep sending it out, lowering your sights until it finally finds a home or do you end up trunking it, convinced better to never see the light of day than get a credit that you’re afraid to list on your cover letter?

Jeff VanderMeer’s Seven Points to Consider When Submitting Short Fiction would argue that even that non-paying market that’s more accepting is a good post to the uncertain ego of a newer writer. I see the validity of that, but maybe I haven’t exhausted my list of preferred markets yet and even if they reject them, maybe there’ll be a tiny bit of feedback that’ll resonate. Things for me to consider.

Miscellanea

Writing

It’s really too early to tell how things are going to work out long-term but so far I feel good. Not overwhelmed by keeping my spreadsheets updated or gut checking my short-term goals. I’m right where I want to be. I hope I can say the same thing a week and a month from now.

I’m writing a little bit every day. I’ve surpassed my 250 words/day goal. It may not seem like many but that’s a novel-worth of words a year. I write longhand — my moleskin and fountain pen are never far from my side. Usually I’m a slow writer, bogged down by my internal editor. Not so much lately. The words are coming out fairly smoothly.

Travel

Today, there was some conversation on twitter about air travel that caught my eye. I’ve done a fair amount of travel for the day job over the years and know the pains of (in)security checkpoints, TSA ineptitude and airport delays. I really wish the train were a viable option for business travel, but 5 hours of flying, plus a day on either side to catch up on sleep, beats the 3-4 days the train would take. Still, I think it’s something Andrea and I will do when we can afford to take a vacation in a couple of years. A trip through the Canadian Rockies, then down the west coast to visit Seattle, Portland and parts of California sounds about right.

Reading

I’m probably a quarter of the way through Jeff VanderMeer’s Finch. It’s weird. It’s noir. It’s awesome. I’ve read some of his short fiction and enjoyed it. Obviously, I’ve read Booklife and City of Saints and Madmen is sitting on my side table. This is apparently my winter of VanderMeer. I’ve fallen behind on reading in the last few years. Coming back to it feels a bit like rediscovering and old friend moved in next door.